Eye opening

I have been doing some hard thinking lately. First of all I have to congradulate myself. I have gotten off my seizer medicaton successfully and know how to spot a seizer coming and not freak out. I am able to redirect my thoughts and sneak right past one. Anyhow yea for me. It only took 3 fking years.
OK, so I have come to realize a major reason for my unsuccessful employment history here. First of all I get stressed. I know everyone does. I get over stressed, I let every little thing piss me off, make me wonder and question everything. I just freak out about everything. I don't know how to control it. I know how to control stress at home, with family and friends. Just not in the work place. Once I am stressed my body immediately reacts. I have IBS, anyone who has it know any little kind of stress irritates it. The only difference to being at home with IBS and being at work, is that you can lay down and take PAIN MEDS, and sit on the toilet as long as you want, and in addition take many many baths. Can't take a bath at work, so I can't relax. Can't take pain meds at work, I would be high and I think there is a law about that some where. Anyhow my second reason for unsuccessful employment history is iscolation. Everytime I get a job I feel the need to make friends or at least get along to be polite. The next thing I know is I just fck off. I either judge people, tell them my whole life history, become two faced, or just annoy them or insult them. I just can't keep my mouth shut. I can't just go to work and enjoy it somewhat. I have to become everyones friend. At first I can deal with it all, but after I notice everyone else has friends or even just one buddy, I start to feel horrible. You know the odd one out, the outsider, the out kast, the loner. I hate it, it reminds me of high school. GRRRRRRRRR!! So once I am at this point I get stressed, depressed, and just don't want to be there anymore. Soon I start thinking everyone is against me and make no sense of anything. I blow everything out of porpotion. Or I just give up and quit.
My conclution is I don't want to fail again, and I don't want to be alone. How do I stop this idiot behavior now that I have reconized it? That is the question now. Hmmm I ponder.......