The days are so long

Like I said in other posts mother nature is playing tricks on us. Everything starts to melt and you begin to think life might get easier. For some reason life seems easier when it is NOT winter. Obviously it has more to do with than just winter, life for my husband and I has gotten loney. We have few friends and they are great. There just isn't family. At so many times we had hoped the family would just sink in a hole and never be found. This was of course due to many disagreements that many other families have. There was on the other hand two people we never had issues with (since married), that was his mother and step dad. We always had a great time with them. We could always pick up the phone and call to ask a question we were stumped on, go for coffee, go on an adventure somewhere new or just get together and play cards. There were never silent moments where the conversation just dropped. God I hate that when you or the other person feels intimidated by a conversation. Or your board with it. They always listened and always had something constructive to say about it. We always had something to do with them. Whether it heard cows, attempt to brace a calf leg, build fence, eat some new yummy food, or just take a drive in the country. They weren't afraid of work, or to have a good time. We miss them so dearly and find it so hard to find someone or something to fill in the void they have placed in our hearts. We end up sitting in the house staring out to no where wondering when we will find that again.
Like I said before we have a few friends and some grandparents. And they all have great qualities. Some I feel like I don't amount to much when around them and I get easily offened by others that I just ignore, because I need their friendship. Others the conversation drops or you are reaching and doing everything you can to make things move easily along.
We just want more. The other day we were at a friends house and the conversation is always interesting and intellectual and very hard to end or leave. These people mean so much to us but yet they are not our family and are reminded so often of that. I think if we could we would adopt them. I really don't know if anything today has made sense becaus I have just been babbling about what is rushing through my head.
I don't think anyone reads my blogs anyways.