The plan for today

I have decided with grass to cash the check. After all the mistakes the broker made, they can figure it out after and hunt us down for it. "oh you wana talk to Mat and Jenn, ummm they are not in... Sorry". How's that sound fkers?

Going to for an interview with Wal-Mart. I am so confused on how to explain my gaps of employment and the length of time I have worked. It is mostly medical, but if I bring that up they will most likely assume I can't work. They want people that will work steady. I actually think I will be able to hold this job as long as I keep other things in check with my life. I have realized that I have to take issues and make them seem as though they are the smallest part of my life and I can move on immediately from it. God if I could start smoking again that would be so easy. Or maybe just a little drink now and then. That won't hurt me. YES it will you stupid twit. Ah well it was a try.

My IBS is back of course because I want this job. I don't understand myself, I can only analyze myself. It seems every time a job comes along, I want and will benefit from; the IBS comes around. It doesn't matter what I eat, whether I get stressed out, sleep etc. Is it a subconscious thing? Or is it just a huge ass coincidence?

SO something is going on with Grass, he is very quiet (more than the usual), subdude, slouchy, doesn't say its his back hurting, so what is it? I know he is worried about money, if he could just hold on until after Christmas. Unfortunately thats when Wal-mart actually hires people. I don't know any other way to make money. I just know how to NOT spend it. I wonder if he is depressed about something. I asked him. It could be that I have been with Liljsm a lot.
Grass wants me home when he gets home. I understand the feeling. I would like him home when I got home. Thing is I get home and I am ignored, I am mostly a roommate. Is he mad I have this blog? Is he upset that Liljsm and me have something in common. OMG does he think we are having a passionate secret love affair that has been going on for years, shit how could he know our little secret? I thought we were sooo discreet? Oh no does he know that is the real reason I can't have kids? Because it might come out a little Jap looking?
OMFG ROTFLMAO!!! I don't know what got into me there but Liljsm if you read this, hope you know I'm joking. Stop puking it's ok. haaaaaaaa!!!