A new hobbie

So a friend asked me why I didn't have a blog. I replied with "I don't know anyone that would read it", he then replied back, "it is not for someone else to read it is for you to vent.".
I have to agree. So this is where I begin.

I really think there is something wrong with me, beside all the ovious issues. I can't figure out why I can't keep a job. I have racked my head and I don't know what is wrong with me. I do come across the idea that it may that I want kids and want to be home with them and then all of a sudden I want to take a bat and beat myself senseless for thinking that way. You see I was not brought up that way and I am totally apposed (in a opion thinking way) with making your husband go to work day after day while you sit on your ass. But critics would disagree and say that being a housewife or a homemaker is a job in it self. I get caught in between these thoughts so often, because I know we can't afford me not to work. But what keeps me from succeeding in the employment world, is it lack of motivation, responsibility, or am I just a usuless bitch?