12.18.2005

Christmas Yah! (and oh, no one reads these!!!)

Merry Christmas to all!! One week away and Santa will be sliding his fat butt down our tiny chimney. Well I am a little jealous of my husband. He got 2 more bonus's from work in the past month. One because the company made a butt load of money and wanted him to stick around. Big Big Big bonus and another was a Christmas bonus. I'm not jealous that he got the bonuses, I am jealous I don't have his determination, work ethic, motivation, and talent to do what he does. Grrr. I am so damn jealous. My own fault though.
We had decided we weren't going to do Christmas this year with the baby coming and all, we just thought we would have a real good one next year. But his brother called and said the whole family was coming so of course that changed. We went and bought a new tree since there was going to be kids here. And we limited our gift prices and who we were gifting.
My god we never new how much it was gonna cost to buy all this baby stuff. One lady told me that I am suppose to get it all at a baby shower, I was quite annoyed at that suggestion. First of all where I come from a baby shower is a surprise you friends and family do because they want to not because they have to, Second, you should never expect anything from anyone, we are bringing this baby into the world not our family and friends, it is our responsibility to provide for him or her. Besides Mat and I don't have many friends and family so of course when thinking about a shower when this woman spoke, I kind of got sad. We are pretty much alone in this. With his mom passing away and not being to share this with us and my family 3600 miles away, I just start to get really down. A baby with no Grandparents and no aunts and uncles. God that is depressing.
Mats Salamander died this week. He wasn't even suppose to make it last winter but we successfully helped him into hibernation. He just didn't make it this year. Mat was pretty down about it. Squirm was his little buddy.
Well we have gotten the car seat, stroller, pack n'play. The crib and changing table are on their way. All we need id the dresser now for all the big items.
My mother sent a Canadian money order for Mat's Xmas, she had something in mind for him but it is tooo big to ship so I was to go buy it and wrap it. So I go down to my Federal Credit Union to cash the money order that is in US DOLLARS. They won't cash it. So I go to the other branch to see my personal banker, JZM's sister. HEHEHE!! She gets on the phone and calls every bank and no one will cash it. One lady finally offered this one time and only. What the heck is the deal. I do this every year, what the heck? I was so aggravated. Gosh I really own Brit one. Well off to work, to see all the crazy people.