Everyone is gone

Well everyone has left and it is just Mat and I with the baby. Holy crap makes you realize how lonely you are. We got word that Mat last living friend is moving far away. Damn you know that leaves nobody here. Mat's uncle was diagnosed with leukemia right before Easter and could go any day or could live 6 months. He is 80 something so you know he don't have long. Life just kind of sucks right now. Yeah we have each other and our little family but holy crap do we always have to be alone, does everyone have to leave or die?? Fuck do we stink. I understand people moving on and bettering their selves, but this dyeing thing really sucks!!
So the neighbor's are bound determined to give us their horses even though we don't know if we can afford to feed them. At first we didn't know how we could afford to build fence, well now we are digging up their fence and replanting all the good posts for free, and tearing down their loafing shed and rebuilding a new one. Recycle Recycle I guess. Lulu has Tape worms, Lizzy got bit by the skunk and Gismo's back leg has no feeling so he limps everywhere, we think it is paralysis from the calcified disks in his back, try and get into the vet Monday. Crap I can't handle all this at once. Where the hell is the money gonna come from. We are still paying off the Babies Medical bills(not complaining there). Although his Bili-Light was $475.00. Ahhh!!! I guess we will pull out the plastic. I would take a job but we have absolutely no place for the baby to go. I would go back to Wal-Mart in a heart beat. I have to say Mom really helped us out a ton. If we didn't have all this extra stuff we would be ok. Just ok. Thanks to my parents. God Bless them, and I hope I win the lottery and can repay them someday.
So we decided to go to Yellowstone while my mom and Aunt were here. Yah guess what it don't open till May. So we got as far as the South Entrance sign. We drove to Palisades, Jackson hole, and through Teton Park. We saw moose, caribou and trumpet swans, so it wasn't a total waste.

Nicholas is One Month Old today. This Tuesday will be his original due date and it will Be interesting to see how much he weighs.
As of today he weighs a little over 8.5 lbs. and is about 21 inches. Long. He is eating so much Better, about 4-5 oz. every four hours or so. Some days aren’t so good, he just snacks when he Wants. That was yesterday. He isn't sleeping through the night yet. He sleeps about 4-5 hours And then is hungry. Doctor said don't push him until he is past his due date. So we will see. He has a little Acid Reflex but the medicine helps.
He has been lifting and holding his head up since he was born, but now he holds and turns it.
Its not for long but enough for him to look around, when he is really mad you can see how Strong he is. He is strong like his Dad. As you can see in the photo he has really filled out in the face. His hands, fingers, and legs Are starting to show baby fat. So all in all he is doing extremely well. When Mat gets home from work and Nicholas is on the 8pm. Schedule; that is their special time
Together. Mat feeds him, burps him, changes him and gets him ready for bed. Mat likes to Play and pretend Nicholas is riding a horse. It's fun, they have a good time together.
We have been out visiting everybody and just having a good time.